The beginning – the end


“From the stars we came, and to the stars we return.”
* Jack Campbell

3rd Eye Perceptions The Elder Grimorie @ Enchantment
E.V.E Propelling Gears clock {B} @ TSA
E.V.E Propelling Gears Cloud {B} @ TSA

[NC] – Victorian Feelings – BlackBurgundy @ TSA
(Stitched) Blackbird Goggles @ TSA
(Stitched) Blackbird Steampunk Jacket @ TSA
Howl – Military uniforms Medal 1,2,3,4



The Thinker


Days  have  passed and  as  much  as  I  try to  keep myself  busy..I  can’t.  It is  not  boredom it  is  all these  thoughts going thru  my  head like  pages falling  off a  book. As  the  day  passes  by  I  find  myself  deeper  and  deeper  into  them, yet  they  are  hard  to  put to  words so hopefully  this  photo will  do.

{anc} in the rain drop lamp / float 2Li {gold} for Deco(c)rate
.random.Matter. – Book of Sorrows for Deco(c)rate
Kensington Gazebo by Ex Machina for Deco(c)rate

*ARGRACE* SHUN – Coppers
Action Inkubator Kore Bases (3D hairbase)
+Spellbound+ Monster Beard
PFC~Punk arms
[Deadwool] Lahood pants_mesh – brown
.:EMO-tions:. * TORUNN * belt l


No Place


One  day  soon I  hope  I  finally  reach  this  place, My  life  was  torn  apart along  with  my  body when I was  diagnosed and  it  hasn’t  been  the  same  since. Going  from an  avid  hiker to  barely  walking has  taken  its  toll, not  only on  my  body  but  my  spirit.

My  dreams  before  this  were  to  take  off  work  for  6  months and  hike the appalachian trail.  I  wanted  to  find  myself again..I wanted  to  be  free..I wanted  to see exactly  what I  was  made  of..I  wanted  to  leave a  story  of  my  life that  my  children  could  tell my grand  children .. I  know..I know.. it  seems  like  I am  self  absorbed and  perhaps  I was. It  was  just  something I  needed. Then  the  cancer  happened and those dreams  faded  with  the  realization that my  life  was  different.

Two  weeks ago  I  ended  back in the  hospital.  it  was a  plethora of  things.  My COPD  had  flared  up  a  few  weeks  before  and  had  developed  into  and  infection and Pneumonia.  They  sent  me  home  that  night with  meds, 2  days  later  I was  being  rushed  into  the  ER,  the  infection  and  Pneumonia had  worsened and  had  caused  me  to  develop a  pulmonary embolism. They admitted  me  and  did  what  Dr’s  do, a  day  later I was  feeling  better, not  well enough  to  leave..but  better.  The  worst was  over..or  so I thought. My  roommate was  in for  basically  the  same  thing only  his  was a  bit  worse, stints  were  going  to  have  to  be  put  in.  They  took  him  down,  put the  stints  in and brought  him  back.. the  worst  was  over  for  him..or  so  we  thought.

About  30 minutes  later he  called  out and  said he  needed  help.  I  must  admit  that  I  got  up  reluctantly but  I  got  up and  looked  over.  his  sheets  were  covered  in  blood. I could  see that  he had  burst  his  femoral artery,his  life  spewing out  of  him. I  hit  the nurses  button but  knew they  weren’t  going  to  realize exactly how  bad he  needed  them. I  ripped  the  oxygen  mask  off,  ripped  the  Iv’s off. ripped  the  heart  monitor off and  took off down  the  hall.  When  I got  to  the first nurses  station the  only one there was  a  student  nurse, but  she  took  off  back  to  the  room.  I  got there  a  few  seconds  later and  looked at  her,  I  could  tell by  the  look  in her  eyes  it  was  bad. She  screamed and  told  me go  get  help. Off  I  went back  down  the  opposite  hall to  the  wings  main  nurses  station. About  half  way  there I  could  feel my  lungs  sinking  into my  chest.. I  knew  it  wasn’t  good. I  managed  to  scream  loud  enough to  get  the  nurses  attention and  told  them  that  room  902  was  bleeding  out. Instantly  they  were  down  the  hall flying  past  me …now  I  had  to  get  back.

I  turned around  and  within a  few  steps came  to  the  realization that  perhaps I  had  made  a  huge mistake. I  could not  get  a  breath  in no  mater  how  hard  I  tried,  my  head  was  spinning.. I was  done  for. But I  remembered something… Roxi was  on  the  other  end  of  the  phone  when  all  this  happened..I was  getting  back  to  her. I  managed  to  get  back and  then  dropped  on the  floor..the  last thing  I  remember seeing  that  night was  my computer  open  and  thinking she  was  hearing the  whole  thing. My  oxygen level had  dropped  to  63 and  I was going  into hypoxia.. then  everything went  black.

Now I  am  sure  everyone has  heard  the  stories of  what  people  experience ,  I  had  heard them  too, but to  be  honest,  I didn’t  believe  them…until  then.
Everything  had  went  black, then  bright  white,  flickering  back  and  forth between the  two.  Slowly  at  first,then  speeding  up faster  and  faster. Then  it  stopped  again  and  I  began  to  see a kaleidoscope of  my  life. Every  person I  had  ever  met. I  saw  my pops, saw  my  mom, my children and  my  siblings.  Then  it  stopped  again and  I was  looking at Richard ( my  roommate ) it  was  so clear I  could  see  everything, then I saw  myself and saw my  computer  open…

I  woke  up in the  ICU unit wondering  what  the  hell  had  just  happened, Those  memories now  etched into  my  very  soul… leaving  me questions  I  don’t think  I will  ever  be  able  to  answer…. I just  want  to  get to my  No Place.
8f8 – No Place of Ours – Autumnal @ Decor(c)rate
[ keke ] still falling rowan arch @ Decor(c)rate
[ keke ] blow me away rowan leaves @ Decor(c)rate
[ keke ] still falling rowan leafs groundcover @ Decor(c)rate
LB_MysticBoardLeaf.v1{4Seasons} @ TLC
LB_MysticBoardLeaf.v2{4Seasons} @ TLC
02_8f8 – La Petite Joie Cafe – Delivery Tricycle RARE
8f8 – 04. Our Secret Hideout – Meadow Tree
07 – 8f8 – Storyteller’s Burrow – Direction Post
09_8f8 – New Beginnings – Wheels
11_8f8 – New Beginnings – Garden Bench


Winners, losers in the end Americans


I  have  been  sitting  here thinking  for  hours on what  to  say , as  much  as  I would  like  to  say nothing  seems  quite right.  I  am  glad  the election  process is over and  am  humbled  by  the  speeches  given  by  both Hillary  and   Trump.  As  much  as  they  fought in the  election cycle the  end its  upholding  our  traditions  and  coming  together  for the  benefit  of  all.  The  olive  branch  has  been  offered.. it’s  up  to  you  to  reach  out  and  accept  it.

Kei’s Aussie Boxing Gym Ring RARE (50L per play) @ 6 Republic
Kei’s Aussie Boxing Gym Chairs @ 6 Republic
Kei’s Aussie Boxing Gym Scoring Table @ 6 Republic
Kei’s Aussie Boxing Gym Bell @ 6 Republic
Kei’s Boxing Gloves @ 6 Republic

{NANTRA} Debate This Podium 1 @ Gacha Garden
{NANTRA} Debate This Podium 2 @ Gacha Garden
{NANTRA} Debate This Pose #8 RARE
[Fetch] Sippy Sippy Cup – Bitch @ Gacha Garden
[Fetch] Sippy Sippy Cup – Fuck Face @ Gacha Garden
[Fetch] Sippy Sippy Cup – Turkey @ Gacha Garden
[Since1975] BoomBox/P ( SOI ) @ Gacha Garden
Junk Food – Joyce’s Phone Clean @ Gacha Garden
Junk Food – Joyce’s Burned Phone @ Gacha Garden
Junk Food – Mike’s Walkie Talkie @ Gacha Garden
Junk Food – Dustin’s Stash @ Gacha Garden
Little Llama – Protest Signs #4 @ Gacha Garden
Little Llama – Protest Signs #9 @ Gacha Garden

NOMAD // Gymnasium RARE
Rowne.Singer – Paparazzi

rezology Couchlocker Hair
Vale Koer Essential Underwear Grey
Vale Koer TippyToe Chucks Original

A&A Donald Hair Ash Blonde (right!!?)
[Deadwool] Peak suit (wool) Blue
.:L&B:. “Dress Shoe” Wingtip
Zaara – Classic Suit Jacket and Pants


I know a cat


We all  know  someone  that  knows  someone  that  can  get things  done..and Stasey from Black Bantam  just  revised  her  sphynx cat  and  for  me it represents  just  that. Again doing  something  out  of  the  box..because..well…I  know  a  cat.

[Black Bantam] Sphynx Halloween Edition Dual Male N21
[Deadwool] Bowler hat – black RARE
[ kunst ] – Cigar RARE
Caboodle – Bowtie – Male Free  group  gift